The world according to Matt Bellamy (20060408 Kerrang article)
The World According to Matt Bellamy
My parents split up when I was 13. The thing that shocked me the most about it was that I didnt feel anything. I couldn't feel gutted. I tried, but I couldn't. I found it a little disturbing about myself. Maybe playing music was my way of dealing with it.
Am I a millionnaire? No, not quite. But thats what people often think. Most of the money we make we save to pay for more touring. And the website which costs us a fucking fortune every month. Plus we've got a London office, with a couple of people working for us. Thats where our money goes.
Muse is my legacy Being an atheist means you have to realise that when you die, that really is it. You've got to make the most of what youve got here and spread as much influence as you can. I believe that you only live through the influence that you spread, whether that means having a kid or making music.
I've had problems with stalkers I had to change my mobile number and e-mail address because I was getting serious amounts of stuff, people writing to me saying they were going to kill themselves if I didn't fuck them. I cant think of anything more unattractive than wanting to have sex with you because of who you are onstage.
I dont touch cocaine or heroin I've seen what those drugs do to people. I moved in with a drug dealer when I was 18. Our flat looked like a scene from Trainspotting, white powders and mirrors and tin foil everywhere. The effect those days had on me is that I dont do those kinds of drugs.
Theres whole sections of my life that I cant remember Everything that was my life until I was about 20 is gone. I've forgotten who I was before then. So I'm trying to have things I'm going to remember in my life other than touring and making albums.
The point of taking magic mushrooms is to dig into your subconcious To experience something thats not always on offer. Im not afraid of seeing something horrible. Its a way of connecting with yourself in a way that you cant normally do.
Im always disappointed with English rock music Im still looking for something new, something really special from this country. At the moment im kinda lost in the world of mp3s, downloading all sorts of shit. I wonder if bands will even bother releasing albums in 10 years time.
People either love or hate Muse I guess it just means we're different. Offending people is better than no reaction at all. I do think we exercise musical freedom more than any other band at the moment. Theres a lack of shame in what we do which is probably what offends people.